Posted on: Sunday, June 28, 2009
Posted at: 8:19 AM
Posted at: 8:19 AM
SCHOOL'S STARTING TOMORROW!!! but im not going. haha. my dad wants to be safe and make sure no one at school has H1N1. D: i wanna go to school. yes, for maybe the second or third time in my life, I WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!!! i wanna see all my friends, talk and talk, sit in that stupid seat in the front of the classroom and listen to the teacher talk and doodle in my notebook. apart from the fact that i havent completed all my holiday homework, i really wanna go back to school. so fun. :D im sure this optimism will fade away after maybe a few weeks, or even days, but i still wanna go back. :(
i wont even get to go for training. :( my stamina is going to die. DIE I TELL YOU. sigh. i think maybe i'll go run or smth, to improve my stamina, but i have this feeling i'll just be too lazy to do so tmr. ARGH. noo im going to run, yes i am! whoots. haha. i hope i get to play for the nationals. but i just have this feeling im not going to. haven't really thought much about it, actually, till recently i remembered. if i get to play, i guess i'll be happy, just that, if i get to be in, that means someone has to go out, which is...sad. and not all that good. i'll prob just feel really bad lar, even though its not exactly my fault. that is, if i even get to play for nationals. i dont think i will. sigh. nevermind. there's still next year. and the year after that. im gonna improve. :DD
i just feel like something new's coming. a change, or smth like that. like im just gonna start doing all those things i stopped doing a long time ago, and at the same time im gonna start doing things i've never ever done before. i dont wanna keep on thinking and thinking and not doing anything about it. i dont wanna just look at my destiny. i wanna BE in it. it just seems far away, u know. i need that passion back, that fire, not just a temporary high. i know i'll reach it someday. someday. (: i know im not disqualified yet. i hope i haven't missed the boat. god help me. give me a second chance.
I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL. :(
byes
leanne
i wont even get to go for training. :( my stamina is going to die. DIE I TELL YOU. sigh. i think maybe i'll go run or smth, to improve my stamina, but i have this feeling i'll just be too lazy to do so tmr. ARGH. noo im going to run, yes i am! whoots. haha. i hope i get to play for the nationals. but i just have this feeling im not going to. haven't really thought much about it, actually, till recently i remembered. if i get to play, i guess i'll be happy, just that, if i get to be in, that means someone has to go out, which is...sad. and not all that good. i'll prob just feel really bad lar, even though its not exactly my fault. that is, if i even get to play for nationals. i dont think i will. sigh. nevermind. there's still next year. and the year after that. im gonna improve. :DD
i just feel like something new's coming. a change, or smth like that. like im just gonna start doing all those things i stopped doing a long time ago, and at the same time im gonna start doing things i've never ever done before. i dont wanna keep on thinking and thinking and not doing anything about it. i dont wanna just look at my destiny. i wanna BE in it. it just seems far away, u know. i need that passion back, that fire, not just a temporary high. i know i'll reach it someday. someday. (: i know im not disqualified yet. i hope i haven't missed the boat. god help me. give me a second chance.
I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL. :(
byes
leanne